I started out sooooo well! Packed up my snacks and lunch to take to work and had a plan, which is what I am supposed to do. Took a trip to see what was offered at the bake sale and someone made homemade empenadas.
Well, I faltered. But, I learned a lesson. First, what happened is that the thoughts that I USED to tell myself came flooding back. You know the ones… “Well, I blew it, so now, it doesn’t matter, I can just have a candy bar”. “Or, well, that was lunch, so dinner can be fish cakes (the battered kind that I just don’t eat anymore) and pasta (yep, the carbs that again, I don’t eat anymore)” But, I talked to a friend tonight and she told me that just because you falter at ONE meal, doesn’t mean that your next meal is a bust. Guess what? She told me that I TOLD HER THAT! (OMG!) I totally forgot that I told her that! She told me that she remembers that all the time she falters, because I told her that and it sticks in her mind! (Talk about me feeling humbled!)
Then, I talked to another friend tonight who told me that she gained 40 lbs back from the weight she lost… She and I both lost about 140 lbs and she was telling me how proud she was of what I had accomplished… and here I am having a bad day… well, a bad few days, actually. I mean, I’m no where near gaining 40 lbs, but I truly am a bit off track lately. But, I’m reminded that people are looking to me as a success story and I AM a success story… so I need to get my head back in the game. I’ve come a LONG way and I need to get myself focused again!
I have SO MUCH support and I have so many people who are inspired by the weight I’ve lost thus far. I truly have turned my life around and I am much healthier than I used to be. I won’t go back to where I was before. It was a life of pain, really. I have people who turn to me for advice or just support.
I want to be there for them to lean on, as I know where they are… I am there, too! Often!
Tomorrow is another day… with it’s own struggles and hopefully triumphs. A day for me to prevail and show my strength. I hope!